“Numb”

People always say that God won’t give you more than you can handle. Nowhere in the bible does it say this. What it says in 2 Corinthians 2:12 is that His grace is sufficient for me and that His power is made perfect in weakness. So what does that mean?

For the past two years almost everything in my life has been upside down. I’ve never quite been able to get through the grief of the losses I’ve experienced. They just keep coming. I’ve started to become almost numb to the pain. I’ve cried more than enough tears and tried to push the hurt into an invisible box whose lid won’t remain closed. In the darkness of the night I’ve poured my heart out to God and waited for an answer that I started to wonder if I’d missed.

I ask myself how much more can I take? Sometimes I’m just trying to get through the day. Isn’t there supposed to be a light at the end of the tunnel? I think this must be where that verse comes in. God does not make me weak; He allows me to be weak so that I can experience His strength. He is building my testimony and it’s quite a story!