The child star Kirk Cameron stars in a movie called “Fireproof.” In it a firefighter is trying to explaining to him the bonds of marriage. He glues together salt and pepper shakers and shows how if you break one to get it loose you will break the other as well.
Some days I feel unglued. Like on a warm spring day when Ken and I should have been cleaning up the lawn or pulling trees broken from the winter winds and snow to the burn pile. He should be tinkering around outside on the vehicles and hooking up the hose for the garden he would plant. I miss seeing him out there doing all the little things he enjoyed so much. There is a hollow place in my life now where he used to be.
I am a bit like that salt shaker, broken apart and trying to clean up the mess that’s been left. It isn’t his fault. It’s just where life took us. He will always be a part of me. So you’ll have to excuse my jagged edges as I try to reassemble my life into something I can once again recognize. I know I can get there. It’s just going to take time.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
Heart Strings 