If you’ve never felt the desperation of not knowing how you would get through the next day count yourself lucky. Several times in my life I’ve been in that place. I know how I got there but I wasn’t sure I could find my way out.
When you lose a child emotionally, as a mother, it is one of the most heart-wrenching things you will ever face, short of death itself. My son left me for a while and had it not been for my daughter I don’t think I could have hung on. She was young and needed her mom. Despite the fact that I am a Christian…that is where I was. I did everything I could to ignore the feeling but I couldn’t shake it. It was only after I heard the audible voice of God saying “Are you done yet?” that I realized I couldn’t fix our relationship alone. After that I began to understand that I needed to let go and let God.
The seasons and years have come and gone and today the bond between us is strong. I was given back something I thought I had lost. It is something more precious than gold. It is my son.
Love You Forever
Heart Strings 